It has become obvious to me that I need to do my writing first thing in the morning. By the afternoon I am not quite as sharp as I would like to be and seem to be in more of a hurry to write anything just to get it done.
Today is my 7th or would have been 50th day smoke free. Unfortunately as I wrote about in Smoking Again, Kind of…,I smoked on New Years day after I had quit November 19th. I blame myself for quitting the Chantix too soon. I had been 18 days with out. Anyway, today I am doing very well thank you. I am taking only one and 1/2 Chantix because I can’t sleep at night, so when I get home from work at 5:00 or so I take the 1/2 instead of the whole one. In the morning I take 1mg tab and it is working quite well. I also have problems waking up in the morning. I was always an early bird until I quit. I guess my body isn’t waking me up for that Nicotine fix. Now I just keep hitting the snooze and really don’t care weather I get up or not. I have resorted to a friend calling me at 6:15 a.m. to wake me up. That is so unreal to me. For years I have been getting up at 5:00 or 5:30 a.m. even on the weekends. I associate this to my body healing from all the damage cigs has caused or the Chantix. When I was off the Chantix I could get up a little easier. That is something I have to check out.