The Journey from Self-Destruct to Self-Love

Smoke Free 27 days!

I am curious about the desire to improve oneself. Why is it that some people have the need to better themselves — i.e., quit smoking, start exercising, eat healthier — and some people are on ‘self-destruct’? Actually, I have been on both sides of this coin. It comes down to self-love or self-hate, depending on where you are at. Look at Brittney Spears, it’s not hard to see that she doesn’t love herself right now. Oh I believe she loves her boys, but until she can love herself, she has nothing to offer them.

When I was on self-destruct, I was so ‘self’ absorbed that all I could think about was myself. I loved my children but, I was not capable of showing that love or contributing anything that would benefit them at the time. Alcohol was what I loved the most. It’s hard to admit that it consumed my every thought, action, and feeling. My life was all about Alcohol and I can say the same about cigarettes

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Being a slave to a chemical like nicotine or alcohol is being on self-destruct. It’s like a slow suicide so it is not surprising that a lot of smokers are depressed people. When we smoke we are self medicating our depression. Nicotine is an upper so it works for us. When we quit, we get depressed. Some of us get dangerously depressed. Suicidal thoughts, no hope, and crying constantly. These are all experiences I have had when I’ve tried to quit smoking in the past. This time it is different. The Chantix has made it so that I can feel somewhat normal while not ingesting Nicotine into my blood stream. I am on an anti-depressant so I am anxious to see what happens to me after 12 weeks on Chantix. Will I crash and smoke again? God, I pray I don’t. I have come too far and learned too much during this quit to go back to smoking. And smoking again will absolutely crush my self-esteem–what little bit I have gotten since I quit–and that would depress me all the more.

Now that I am on the other side, self-love, it has become clear to me of one major difference between self-hate and self-love. God. He was nowhere in my life when I was abusing Alcohol. I have struggled with a ‘conscious contact’ with Him during my sobriety. I try to remember to ask Him to Please keep me Sober in the morning and Thank Him at night for doing so. Having a scheduled time in the morning for my readings and meditation helped me with this but, since I started attending 7:00 a.m. meetings, I have let that go by the wayside. The last few weeks I haven’t been able to attend the early meetings so I went to a different group on Friday night. Everything in my life has changed since I quit smoking so I shouldn’t be surprised my meeting schedule would change also. When I quit drinking, everything in my life changed also. Doing things differently is what going from self-hate to self-love is all about. I need to be more open to the changes that are happening in my life. Not just the physical, which is all I have been focusing on for the last 27 days, but the spiritual and mental changes too.

Quitting smoking has made me crave a more spiritual life. I feel that my heart is open to God and there isn’t any ‘clogged arteries’ anymore coming from guilt or hating myself. Loving me, being comfortable in my own skin, is something I have searched for in bottles and in packs all my life but, I could never find. I have found it because God is in my life today whether I am ‘conscious’ of Him or not, He is here with me at all times. He loves me, which means I am lovable, which means I deserve to be loved. That love comes from me, loving myself, taking care of myself, so that I now have love to give to my children and family, plus any other people I meet along this journey that I am on. It’s true, ‘you can’t love someone, until you love yourself.’

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If you are a Woman-Please don’t Smoke!

Smoke Free 25 Days!

This post started out to be about smoking and early menopause. This happened to me so I thought it would be interesting to research. Well, as it turns out I found out a lot more about women and smoking then I really wanted to know. It’s scary girls, so especially you teenagers, PLEASE DON’T EVER LITE UP!

Did any of you know that smoking affects your ESTROGEN LEVEL? There are significantly lower levels of estrogens noted in many studies of women smokers. Also, lower levels of estrogens causes early menopause. Therefore, when we quit our estrogen levels increase hence, QUIT ZITS. It may be why we gain weight also. I feel like I am going through puberty again. Does this mean I will go through Menopause again? I need more answers. A call to my Doctor is definately in order.

Anyway, here are some studies done on women regarding smoking and our estrogen levels and the problems that can arise, whether we quit or not.

This is an excerpt from the International Journal of Cancer, 2004 (Vol. 112) (No. 2) 324-328

And finally, as we have seen, smokers who are on the pill have as much as 20 times the risk as nonsmokers on the pill. This may have to do with the fact that cigarette smoking alters the estrogen metabolism in premenopausal women. The resulting lower estrogen levels cause premature menopause, which in itself increases the risk of coronary heart disease. All in all, because of the high prevalence of smoking among women, eliminating this habit would probably be the single most effective method of reducing their incidence of heart disease.”

And this is from the Document Title: International Journal of Cancer, 2004 (Vol. 112) (No. 2) 324-328

“We conclude that ever-smoking was associated with the risk of breast cancer in women with high levels of estrone, and that ex-smoking was associated with breast cancer in women with high levels of estrone or estradiol.”

This is from International Journal of Epidemiology 2000;29:845-851
International Epidemiological Association 2000

Conclusions: Smoking was independently related to an earlier menopausal transition, although the effect on inception of the perimenopause was particularly observed among underweight women.

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Do You have “Ex-Smoker Disorder?”

Smoke Free 24 days!

Signs you may be an ex-smoker…

There are so many “Disorders” these days, I thought there should be one for all of us ex-smokers. Now that we have Chantix, there are going to be a lot more of us running around. Make it easy on yourself to recognize someone with the disorder, by reading the symptoms below.

  • A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation. Never be able to smoke again. What is there to look forward too? No more smokers cough in the morning to wake up to. No more panic attacks because when I get out of bed and I can’t find my cigarettes or worse…a lighter. Yes, it is rather bleak to wake up in the morning with clean lungs and no panic attacks.
  • Loss of interest in daily activities–No interest in or ability to enjoy former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex. OMG! You mean I can’t enjoy my former activity of being a couch potato. What about my favorite pastime of standing outside in a wind chill of -50 degrees trying to get a good hit off of my cigarette. Oh yes, that is a true loss.
  • Appetite or weight changes–Significant weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month. What can I say? Food never tasted so good! Unfortunately I now enjoy food with all my senses, I can smell it and actually TASTE it! Amazing. Not to worry though, this symptom will correct itself around 6-months to a year.
  • Sleep changes–Either insomnia or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia) Sleep is good! Our bodies are healing and they need the rest to restore all the damage we did to ourselves by smoking.
  • Psychomotor agitation or retardation–Either feeling “keyed up” and restless or sluggish and physically slowed down. And this is supposed to be something new? I have always had this symptom, even when I was smoking.
  • Loss of energy–Feeling fatigued and physically drained. Even small tasks are exhausting or take longer. Time does seem to move in slow motion now. I used to get up and get ready for work and have a good 30 minutes to get on my computer and check emails or blog before I had to leave for work. Oh yeah, I would get up at 4:30 a.m. coughing my lungs up and craving a cigarette. Now that I’m not craving nicotine in the morning, I can sleep later. I don’t have to get up and have my “fix.”
  • Self-loving–Strong feelings of worthiness or pride. No criticism of perceived faults and mistakes. All of a sudden, we love who we are. Active, healthy,empowered people who are doing the single most important change we can make in our entire lives. We are proud of ourselves for overcoming many obstacles and not smoking. We have made it through many trials and tribulations and did not smoke! We are no longer beating ourselves up for not taking care of our health, for being perceived as “outcasts” in our society. Yes, this is a tough one to live with. More self-esteem is always a downer.
  • Concentration problems–Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things. Smoking a cigarette doesn’t help us focus or concentrate any better. It’s a distraction from the problem at hand. If I have problems concentrating, I take 10 deep breaths which gets more oxygen to my brain and relaxes me. It works every time. Or, getting up and walking around also helps. I think it does the same thing-get that oxygen flowing to my brain.
  • Irritability–Easily annoyed or frustrated and lashing out in anger or snapping at others. Unfortunately, nicotine withdrawal isn’t a good legal defense for murder. So, for now we have to learn how to cope with these feelings. I haven’t murdered anyone yet but, I have lashed out with some choice words to a co-worker. Before I quit smoking, I thought I was a saint, so lashing out just makes me a little more human and a little less perfect. I’m okay with that. It was a lot of pressure trying to be perfect.
  • Aches and pains–New or worse physical symptoms, including headaches, backaches, diarrhea or constipation. Feeling aches and pains makes me grateful that I’m alive and not lying in some hospital bed with a tube in my lung and hooked up to oxygen. I can deal with a few minor discomforts because my body is healing.

That’s it for now. If you recognize any of these symptoms in yourself, get down on your knees and thank God for the blessing he has given you. A second chance at life and the power to choose how you want to live it, this time around.

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What’s really in a Cigarette?

What’s really in a Cigarette?

You will be shocked at the list of ingredients in one cigarette. Cigarette smoke contains over 4,000 chemicals, including 43 known cancer-causing (carcinogenic) compounds and 400 other toxins. These include nicotine, tar, and carbon monoxide, as well as formaldehyde, ammonia, hydrogen cyanide, arsenic, and DDT.

It’s funny because I’m so careful about what I eat, reading the ingredients labels on my food. I can’t have too much sodium or fat, etc. Did I care when I was smoking what was in those little cigs of mine? It’s a helluva lot more than tobacco! It’s like, I always buckle my seat belt every time I get in my car. I do it because I am a Mother, a daughter, a sister, and I have to take care of myself because people depend on me and love me. Did I think about them when I lit up a cigarette? No not really. I just needed a hit of nicotine so I could crave more nicotine in an hour, and so on.

The worst, or most unbelievable ingredients in cigarettes

Ammonia: Household cleaner
Angelica root extract: Known to cause cancer in animals
Arsenic: Used in rat poisons
Benzene: Used in making dyes, synthetic rubber
Butane: Gas; used in lighter fluid
Carbon monoxide: Poisonous gas
Cadmium: Used in batteries
Cyanide: Deadly poison
DDT: A banned insecticide
Ethyl Furoate: Causes liver damage in animals
Lead: Poisonous in high doses
Formaldehiyde: Used to preserve dead specimens
Methoprene: Insecticide
Megastigmatrienone: Chemical naturally found in grapefruit juice
Maltitol: Sweetener for diabetics
Napthalene: Ingredient in mothballs
Methyl isocyanate: Its accidental release killed 2000 people in Bhopal, India in 1984
Polonium: Cancer-causing radioactive element

The Longer List of Ingredients in Cigarettes

  • Acetanisole,
  • Acetic Acid,
  • Acetoin,
  • Acetophenone,
  • 6-Acetoxydihydrotheaspirane,
  • 2-Acetyl-3- Ethylpyrazine,
  • 2-Acetyl-5-Methylfuran,
  • Acetylpyrazine,
  • 2-Acetylpyridine,
  • 3-Acetylpyridine,
  • 2-Acetylthiazole,
  • Aconitic Acid,
  • dl-Alanine,
  • Alfalfa Extract,
  • Allspice Extract,
  • Oleoresin,
  • And Oil,
  • Allyl Hexanoate,
  • Allyl Ionone,
  • Almond Bitter Oil,
  • Ambergris Tincture,
  • Ammonia,
  • Ammonium Bicarbonate,
  • Ammonium Hydroxide,
  • Ammonium Phosphate Dibasic,
  • Ammonium Sulfide,
  • Amyl Alcohol,
  • Amyl Butyrate,
  • Amyl Formate,
  • Amyl Octanoate,
  • alpha-Amylcinnamaldehyde,
  • Amyris Oil,
  • trans-Anethole,
  • Angelica Root Extract, Oil and Seed Oil,
  • Anise,
  • Anise Star, Extract and Oils,
  • Anisyl Acetate,
  • Anisyl Alcohol,
  • Anisyl Formate,
  • Anisyl Phenylacetate,
  • Apple Juice Concentrate, Extract, and Skins,
  • Apricot Extract and Juice Concentrate,
  • 1-Arginine,
  • Asafetida Fluid Extract And Oil,
  • Ascorbic Acid,
  • 1-Asparagine Monohydrate,
  • 1-Aspartic Acid,
  • Balsam Peru and Oil,
  • Basil Oil,
  • Bay Leaf, Oil and Sweet Oil,
  • Beeswax White,
  • Beet Juice Concentrate,
  • Benzaldehyde,
  • Benzaldehyde Glyceryl Acetal,
  • Benzoic Acid, Benzoin,
  • Benzoin Resin,
  • Benzophenone,
  • Benzyl Alcohol,
  • Benzyl Benzoate,
  • Benzyl Butyrate,
  • Benzyl Cinnamate,
  • Benzyl Propionate,
  • Benzyl Salicylate,
  • Bergamot Oil,
  • Bisabolene,
  • Black Currant Buds Absolute,
  • Borneol,
  • Bornyl Acetate,
  • Buchu Leaf Oil,
  • 1,3-Butanediol,
  • 2,3-Butanedione,
  • 1-Butanol,
  • 2-Butanone,
  • 4(2-Butenylidene)-3,5,5-Trimethyl-2-Cyclohexen-1-One,
  • Butter, Butter Esters, and Butter Oil,
  • Butyl Acetate,
  • Butyl Butyrate,
  • Butyl Butyryl Lactate,
  • Butyl Isovalerate,
  • Butyl Phenylacetate,
  • Butyl Undecylenate,
  • 3-Butylidenephthalide,
  • Butyric Acid,
  • Cadinene,
  • Caffeine,
  • Calcium Carbonate,
  • Camphene,
  • Cananga Oil,
  • Capsicum Oleoresin,
  • Caramel Color,
  • Caraway Oil,
  • Carbon Dioxide,
  • Cardamom Oleoresin, Extract, Seed Oil, and Powder,
  • Carob Bean and Extract,
  • beta-Carotene,
  • Carrot Oil,
  • Carvacrol,
  • 4-Carvomenthenol,
  • 1-Carvone,
  • beta-Caryophyllene,
  • beta-Caryophyllene Oxide,
  • Cascarilla Oil and Bark Extract,
  • Cassia Bark Oil,
  • Cassie Absolute and Oil,
  • Castoreum Extract, Tincture and Absolute,
  • Cedar Leaf Oil,
  • Cedarwood Oil Terpenes and Virginiana,
  • Cedrol,
  • Celery Seed Extract, Solid, Oil, And Oleoresin,
  • Cellulose Fiber,
  • Chamomile Flower Oil And Extract,
  • Chicory Extract,
  • Chocolate,
  • Cinnamaldehyde,
  • Cinnamic Acid,
  • Cinnamon Leaf Oil, Bark Oil, and Extract,
  • Cinnamyl Acetate,
  • Cinnamyl Alcohol,
  • Cinnamyl Cinnamate,
  • Cinnamyl Isovalerate,
  • Cinnamyl Propionate,
  • Citral,
  • Citric Acid,
  • Citronella Oil,
  • dl-Citronellol,
  • Citronellyl Butyrate,
  • Citronellyl Isobutyrate,
  • Civet Absolute,
  • Clary Oil,
  • Clover Tops, Red Solid Extract,
  • Cocoa,
  • Cocoa Shells, Extract, Distillate And Powder,
  • Coconut Oil,
  • Coffee,
  • Cognac White and Green Oil,
  • Copaiba Oil,
  • Coriander Extract and Oil,
  • Corn Oil,
  • Corn Silk,
  • Costus Root Oil,
  • Cubeb Oil,
  • Cuminaldehyde,
  • para-Cymene,
  • 1-Cysteine,
  • Dandelion Root Solid Extract,
  • Davana Oil,
  • 2-trans, 4-trans-Decadienal,
  • delta-Decalactone,
  • gamma-Decalactone,
  • Decanal,
  • Decanoic Acid,
  • 1-Decanol,
  • 2-Decenal,
  • Dehydromenthofurolactone,
  • Diethyl Malonate,
  • Diethyl Sebacate,
  • 2,3-Diethylpyrazine,
  • Dihydro Anethole,
  • 5,7-Dihydro-2-Methylthieno(3,4-D) Pyrimidine,
  • Dill Seed Oil and Extract,
  • meta-Dimethoxybenzene,
  • para-Dimethoxybenzene,
  • 2,6-Dimethoxyphenol,
  • Dimethyl Succinate,
  • 3,4-Dimethyl-1,2-Cyclopentanedione,
  • 3,5- Dimethyl-1,2-Cyclopentanedione,
  • 3,7-Dimethyl-1,3,6-Octatriene,
  • 4,5-Dimethyl-3-Hydroxy-2,5-Dihydrofuran-2-One,
  • 6,10-Dimethyl-5,9-Undecadien-2-One,
  • 3,7-Dimethyl-6-Octenoic Acid,
  • 2,4-Dimethylacetophenone,
  • alpha,para-Dimethylbenzyl Alcohol,
  • alpha,alpha-Dimethylphenethyl Acetate,
  • alpha,alpha Dimethylphenethyl Butyrate,
  • 2,3-Dimethylpyrazine,
  • 2,5-Dimethylpyrazine,
  • 2,6-Dimethylpyrazine,
  • Dimethyltetrahydrobenzofuranone,
  • delta-Dodecalactone,
  • gamma-Dodecalactone,
  • para-Ethoxybenzaldehyde,
  • Ethyl 10-Undecenoate,
  • Ethyl 2-Methylbutyrate,
  • Ethyl Acetate,
  • Ethyl Acetoacetate,
  • Ethyl Alcohol,
  • Ethyl Benzoate,
  • Ethyl Butyrate,
  • Ethyl Cinnamate,
  • Ethyl Decanoate,
  • Ethyl Fenchol,
  • Ethyl Furoate,
  • Ethyl Heptanoate,
  • Ethyl Hexanoate,
  • Ethyl Isovalerate,
  • Ethyl Lactate,
  • Ethyl Laurate,
  • Ethyl Levulinate,
  • Ethyl Maltol,
  • Ethyl Methyl Phenylglycidate,
  • Ethyl Myristate,
  • Ethyl Nonanoate,
  • Ethyl Octadecanoate,
  • Ethyl Octanoate,
  • Ethyl Oleate,
  • Ethyl Palmitate,
  • Ethyl Phenylacetate,
  • Ethyl Propionate,
  • Ethyl Salicylate,
  • Ethyl trans-2-Butenoate,
  • Ethyl Valerate,
  • Ethyl Vanillin,
  • 2-Ethyl (or Methyl)-(3,5 and 6)-Methoxypyrazine,
  • 2-Ethyl-1-Hexanol, 3-Ethyl -2 -Hydroxy-2-Cyclopenten-1-One,
  • 2-Ethyl-3, (5 or 6)-Dimethylpyrazine,
  • 5-Ethyl-3-Hydroxy-4-Methyl-2(5H)-Furanone,
  • 2-Ethyl-3-Methylpyrazine,
  • 4-Ethylbenzaldehyde,
  • 4-Ethylguaiacol,
  • para-Ethylphenol,
  • 3-Ethylpyridine,
  • Eucalyptol,
  • Farnesol,
  • D-Fenchone,
  • Fennel Sweet Oil,
  • Fenugreek, Extract, Resin, and Absolute,
  • Fig Juice Concentrate,
  • Food Starch Modified,
  • Furfuryl Mercaptan,
  • 4-(2-Furyl)-3-Buten-2-One,
  • Galbanum Oil,
  • Genet Absolute,
  • Gentian Root Extract,
  • Geraniol,
  • Geranium Rose Oil,
  • Geranyl Acetate,
  • Geranyl Butyrate,
  • Geranyl Formate,
  • Geranyl Isovalerate,
  • Geranyl Phenylacetate,
  • Ginger Oil and Oleoresin,
  • 1-Glutamic Acid,
  • 1-Glutamine,
  • Glycerol,
  • Glycyrrhizin Ammoniated,
  • Grape Juice Concentrate,
  • Guaiac Wood Oil,
  • Guaiacol,
  • Guar Gum,
  • 2,4-Heptadienal,
  • gamma-Heptalactone,
  • Heptanoic Acid,
  • 2-Heptanone,
  • 3-Hepten-2-One,
  • 2-Hepten-4-One,
  • 4-Heptenal,
  • trans -2-Heptenal,
  • Heptyl Acetate,
  • omega-6-Hexadecenlactone,
  • gamma-Hexalactone,
  • Hexanal,
  • Hexanoic Acid,
  • 2-Hexen-1-Ol,
  • 3-Hexen-1-Ol,
  • cis-3-Hexen-1-Yl Acetate,
  • 2-Hexenal,
  • 3-Hexenoic Acid,
  • trans-2-Hexenoic Acid,
  • cis-3-Hexenyl Formate,
  • Hexyl 2-Methylbutyrate,
  • Hexyl Acetate,
  • Hexyl Alcohol,
  • Hexyl Phenylacetate,
  • 1-Histidine,
  • Honey,
  • Hops Oil,
  • Hydrolyzed Milk Solids,
  • Hydrolyzed Plant Proteins,
  • 5-Hydroxy-2,4-Decadienoic Acid delta- Lactone,
  • 4-Hydroxy-2,5-Dimethyl-3(2H)-Furanone,
  • 2-Hydroxy-3,5,5-Trimethyl-2-Cyclohexen-1-One,
  • 4-Hydroxy -3-Pentenoic Acid Lactone,
  • 2-Hydroxy-4-Methylbenzaldehyde,
  • 4-Hydroxybutanoic Acid Lactone,
  • Hydroxycitronellal,
  • 6-Hydroxydihydrotheaspirane,
  • 4-(para-Hydroxyphenyl)-2-Butanone,
  • Hyssop Oil,
  • Immortelle Absolute and Extract,
  • alpha-Ionone,
  • beta-Ionone,
  • alpha-Irone,
  • Isoamyl Acetate,
  • Isoamyl Benzoate,
  • Isoamyl Butyrate,
  • Isoamyl Cinnamate,
  • Isoamyl Formate, Isoamyl Hexanoate,
  • Isoamyl Isovalerate,
  • Isoamyl Octanoate,
  • Isoamyl Phenylacetate,
  • Isobornyl Acetate,
  • Isobutyl Acetate,
  • Isobutyl Alcohol,
  • Isobutyl Cinnamate,
  • Isobutyl Phenylacetate,
  • Isobutyl Salicylate,
  • 2-Isobutyl-3-Methoxypyrazine,
  • alpha-Isobutylphenethyl Alcohol,
  • Isobutyraldehyde,
  • Isobutyric Acid,
  • d,l-Isoleucine,
  • alpha-Isomethylionone,
  • 2-Isopropylphenol,
  • Isovaleric Acid,
  • Jasmine Absolute, Concrete and Oil,
  • Kola Nut Extract,
  • Labdanum Absolute and Oleoresin,
  • Lactic Acid,
  • Lauric Acid,
  • Lauric Aldehyde,
  • Lavandin Oil,
  • Lavender Oil,
  • Lemon Oil and Extract,
  • Lemongrass Oil,
  • 1-Leucine,
  • Levulinic Acid,
  • Licorice Root, Fluid, Extract and Powder,
  • Lime Oil ,
  • Linalool,
  • Linalool Oxide,
  • Linalyl Acetate,
  • Linden Flowers,
  • Lovage Oil And Extract,
  • 1-Lysine,
  • Mace Powder, Extract and Oil ,
  • Magnesium Carbonate,
  • Malic Acid,
  • Malt and Malt Extract,
  • Maltodextrin,
  • Maltol,
  • Maltyl Isobutyrate,
  • Mandarin Oil,
  • Maple Syrup and Concentrate,
  • Mate Leaf, Absolute and Oil,
  • para-Mentha-8-Thiol-3-One,
  • Menthol,
  • Menthone,
  • Menthyl Acetate,
  • dl-Methionine,
  • Methoprene,
  • 2-Methoxy-4-Methylphenol,
  • 2-Methoxy-4-Vinylphenol,
  • para-Methoxybenzaldehyde,
  • 1-(para-Methoxyphenyl)-1-Penten-3-One,
  • 4-(para-Methoxyphenyl)-2-Butanone,
  • 1-(para-Methoxyphenyl)-2-Propanone,
  • Methoxypyrazine,
  • Methyl 2-Furoate,
  • Methyl 2-Octynoate,
  • Methyl 2-Pyrrolyl Ketone,
  • Methyl Anisate,
  • Methyl Anthranilate,
  • Methyl Benzoate,
  • Methyl Cinnamate,
  • Methyl Dihydrojasmonate,
  • Methyl Ester of Rosin, Partially Hydrogenated,
  • Methyl Isovalerate,
  • Methyl Linoleate (48%),
  • Methyl Linolenate (52%) Mixture,
  • Methyl Naphthyl Ketone,
  • Methyl Nicotinate,
  • Methyl Phenylacetate,
  • Methyl Salicylate,
  • Methyl Sulfide,
  • 3-Methyl-1-Cyclopentadecanone,
  • 4-Methyl-1-Phenyl-2-Pentanone,
  • 5-Methyl-2-Phenyl-2-Hexenal,
  • 5-Methyl-2-Thiophenecarboxaldehyde,
  • 6-Methyl-3,-5-Heptadien-2-One,
  • 2-Methyl-3-(para-Isopropylphenyl) Propionaldehyde,
  • 5-Methyl-3-Hexen-2-One,
  • 1-Methyl-3Methoxy-4-Isopropylbenzene,
  • 4-Methyl-3-Pentene-2-One,
  • 2-Methyl-4-Phenylbutyraldehyde,
  • 6-Methyl-5-Hepten-2-One,
  • 4-Methyl-5-Thiazoleethanol,
  • 4-Methyl-5-Vinylthiazole,
  • Methyl-alpha-Ionone,
  • Methyl-trans-2-Butenoic Acid,
  • 4-Methylacetophenone,
  • para-Methylanisole,
  • alpha-Methylbenzyl Acetate,
  • alpha-Methylbenzyl Alcohol,
  • 2-Methylbutyraldehyde,
  • 3-Methylbutyraldehyde,
  • 2-Methylbutyric Acid,
  • alpha-Methylcinnamaldehyde,
  • Methylcyclopentenolone,
  • 2-Methylheptanoic Acid,
  • 2-Methylhexanoic Acid,
  • 3-Methylpentanoic Acid,
  • 4-Methylpentanoic Acid,
  • 2-Methylpyrazine,
  • 5-Methylquinoxaline,
  • 2-Methyltetrahydrofuran-3-One,
  • (Methylthio)Methylpyrazine (Mixture Of Isomers),
  • 3-Methylthiopropionaldehyde,
  • Methyl 3-Methylthiopropionate,
  • 2-Methylvaleric Acid,
  • Mimosa Absolute and Extract,
  • Molasses Extract and Tincture,
  • Mountain Maple Solid Extract,
  • Mullein Flowers,
  • Myristaldehyde,
  • Myristic Acid,
  • Myrrh Oil,
  • beta-Napthyl Ethyl Ether,
  • Nerol,
  • Neroli Bigarde Oil,
  • Nerolidol,
  • Nona-2-trans,6-cis-Dienal,
  • 2,6-Nonadien-1-Ol,
  • gamma-Nonalactone,
  • Nonanal,
  • Nonanoic Acid,
  • Nonanone,
  • trans-2-Nonen-1-Ol,
  • 2-Nonenal,
  • Nonyl Acetate,
  • Nutmeg Powder and Oil,
  • Oak Chips Extract and Oil,
  • Oak Moss Absolute,
  • 9,12-Octadecadienoic Acid (48%) And 9,12,15-Octadecatrienoic Acid (52%),
  • delta-Octalactone,
  • gamma-Octalactone,
  • Octanal,
  • Octanoic Acid,
  • 1-Octanol,
  • 2-Octanone,
  • 3-Octen-2-One,
  • 1-Octen-3-Ol,
  • 1-Octen-3-Yl Acetate,
  • 2-Octenal,
  • Octyl Isobutyrate,
  • Oleic Acid ,
  • Olibanum Oil,
  • Opoponax Oil And Gum,
  • Orange Blossoms Water, Absolute, and Leaf Absolute,
  • Orange Oil and Extract,
  • Origanum Oil,
  • Orris Concrete Oil and Root Extract,
  • Palmarosa Oil,
  • Palmitic Acid,
  • Parsley Seed Oil,
  • Patchouli Oil,
  • omega-Pentadecalactone,
  • 2,3-Pentanedione,
  • 2-Pentanone,
  • 4-Pentenoic Acid,
  • 2-Pentylpyridine,
  • Pepper Oil, Black And White,
  • Peppermint Oil,
  • Peruvian (Bois De Rose) Oil,
  • Petitgrain Absolute, Mandarin Oil and Terpeneless Oil,
  • alpha-Phellandrene,
  • 2-Phenenthyl Acetate,
  • Phenenthyl Alcohol,
  • Phenethyl Butyrate,
  • Phenethyl Cinnamate,
  • Phenethyl Isobutyrate,
  • Phenethyl Isovalerate,
  • Phenethyl Phenylacetate,
  • Phenethyl Salicylate,
  • 1-Phenyl-1-Propanol,
  • 3-Phenyl-1-Propanol,
  • 2-Phenyl-2-Butenal,
  • 4-Phenyl-3-Buten-2-Ol,
  • 4-Phenyl-3-Buten-2-One,
  • Phenylacetaldehyde,
  • Phenylacetic Acid,
  • 1-Phenylalanine,
  • 3-Phenylpropionaldehyde,
  • 3-Phenylpropionic Acid,
  • 3-Phenylpropyl Acetate,
  • 3-Phenylpropyl Cinnamate,
  • 2-(3-Phenylpropyl)Tetrahydrofuran,
  • Phosphoric Acid,
  • Pimenta Leaf Oil,
  • Pine Needle Oil, Pine Oil, Scotch,
  • Pineapple Juice Concentrate,
  • alpha-Pinene, beta-Pinene,
  • D-Piperitone,
  • Piperonal,
  • Pipsissewa Leaf Extract,
  • Plum Juice,
  • Potassium Sorbate,
  • 1-Proline,
  • Propenylguaethol,
  • Propionic Acid,
  • Propyl Acetate,
  • Propyl para-Hydroxybenzoate,
  • Propylene Glycol,
  • 3-Propylidenephthalide,
  • Prune Juice and Concentrate,
  • Pyridine,
  • Pyroligneous Acid And Extract,
  • Pyrrole,
  • Pyruvic Acid,
  • Raisin Juice Concentrate,
  • Rhodinol,
  • Rose Absolute and Oil,
  • Rosemary Oil,
  • Rum,
  • Rum Ether,
  • Rye Extract,
  • Sage, Sage Oil, and Sage Oleoresin,
  • Salicylaldehyde,
  • Sandalwood Oil, Yellow,
  • Sclareolide,
  • Skatole,
  • Smoke Flavor,
  • Snakeroot Oil,
  • Sodium Acetate,
  • Sodium Benzoate,
  • Sodium Bicarbonate,
  • Sodium Carbonate,
  • Sodium Chloride,
  • Sodium Citrate,
  • Sodium Hydroxide,
  • Solanone,
  • Spearmint Oil,
  • Styrax Extract, Gum and Oil,
  • Sucrose Octaacetate,
  • Sugar Alcohols,
  • Sugars,
  • Tagetes Oil,
  • Tannic Acid,
  • Tartaric Acid,
  • Tea Leaf and Absolute,
  • alpha-Terpineol,
  • Terpinolene,
  • Terpinyl Acetate,
  • 5,6,7,8-Tetrahydroquinoxaline,
  • 1,5,5,9-Tetramethyl-13-Oxatricyclo(,9))Tridecane,
  • 2,3,4,5, and 3,4,5,6-Tetramethylethyl-Cyclohexanone,
  • 2,3,5,6-Tetramethylpyrazine,
  • Thiamine Hydrochloride,
  • Thiazole,
  • 1-Threonine,
  • Thyme Oil, White and Red,
  • Thymol,
  • Tobacco Extracts,
  • Tochopherols (mixed),
  • Tolu Balsam Gum and Extract,
  • Tolualdehydes,
  • para-Tolyl 3-Methylbutyrate,
  • para-Tolyl Acetaldehyde,
  • para-Tolyl Acetate,
  • para-Tolyl Isobutyrate,
  • para-Tolyl Phenylacetate,
  • Triacetin,
  • 2-Tridecanone,
  • 2-Tridecenal,
  • Triethyl Citrate,
  • 3,5,5-Trimethyl -1-Hexanol,
  • para,alpha,alpha-Trimethylbenzyl Alcohol,
  • 4-(2,6,6-Trimethylcyclohex-1-Enyl)But-2-En-4-One,
  • 2,6,6-Trimethylcyclohex-2-Ene-1,4-Dione,
  • 2,6,6-Trimethylcyclohexa-1,3-Dienyl Methan,
  • 4-(2,6,6-Trimethylcyclohexa-1,3-Dienyl)But-2-En-4-One,
  • 2,2,6-Trimethylcyclohexanone,
  • 2,3,5-Trimethylpyrazine,
  • 1-Tyrosine,
  • delta-Undercalactone,
  • gamma-Undecalactone,
  • Undecanal,
  • 2-Undecanone, 1
  • 0-Undecenal,
  • Urea,
  • Valencene,
  • Valeraldehyde,
  • Valerian Root Extract, Oil and Powder,
  • Valeric Acid,
  • gamma-Valerolactone,
  • Valine,
  • Vanilla Extract And Oleoresin,
  • Vanillin,
  • Veratraldehyde,
  • Vetiver Oil,
  • Vinegar,
  • Violet Leaf Absolute,
  • Walnut Hull Extract,
  • Water,
  • Wheat Extract And Flour,
  • Wild Cherry Bark Extract,
  • Wine and Wine Sherry,
  • Xanthan Gum,
  • 3,4-Xylenol,
  • Yeast

Smoke Free 15 Days!

Smoke Free 15 Days!

Woo Hoo! I made it past the two week mark. I am so glad I went back on the Chantix after blowing it on New Years Day. Taking one Chantix a day seems to be just the right amount. I’m not so sleepy in the morning that I can’t get up. I went from three alarms back to only one in the morning, even taking 1/2 Chantix at 5:00 or 5:30 p.m. would make me drowsy in the morning. So now that my Insurance is covering the Chantix so it only costs $20, a one month supply will last me two months. That’s okay with me. Whatever I can save is great.

It’s really amazing that I don’t even think about smoking. Sometimes in the mornings, I will remember that I used to smoke but there isn’t any major craving, just a kind of fidgeting/restless feeling. Usually I just take a few really deep breaths and it’s gone. As smokers we took so many deep breaths everyday that our body’s got used to that. So once in a while I will take a really deep breath and I feel so much better. I guess the oxygen going to my brain kind of gives me a “feel good” feeling. I haven’t had any more of those smoking dreams either. I would wake up and think, “Oh No, I blew it!” and then realize that it was a dream. Whew, that was such a big relief.

The habit is definitely gone. I don’t even reach in my purse for “something?”, like I did when I first quit. I would get in my car and start it up and start digging in my purse. Then I would remember that I quit smoking so I won’t find that pack of cigarettes or a lighter in there. It’s a good feeling but, kind of strange. I’m grateful the urge is gone and I’m sure there will be moments like New Year’s day, when I will be crazy again. I hope I am a little better prepared this time though. I’m not looking forward to going off the Chantix after what happend when I went off of it after only 4-weeks. My Doc said I just need to stay on it the full twelve weeks this time and that’s what I am going to do. One day at a time. I don’t have to worry about when I quit the Chantix right now. I tend to borrow trouble like that and forget to keep it in today.

Today was a good day. I didn’t smoke, drink, or overeat. Things are good and I am happier as a non-smoker. I used to say that over and over to myself when I first quit back in November. It was my mantra, “I am happier as a non-smoker,” I would laugh and say, “yeah, right.” Now it is true. That is so cool.


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Back at Work, MacBook Air™ Released, and Gratitude for Quitting Smoking

Back at work today! Everyone is talking about the release of the MacBook Air™. Of course, I work in Information Technology so it seems to be all the buzz with the staff around here. Wow, it is the thinnest laptop ever and I am just amazed myself. I am a PC person and Macs are peaking my interest more these days. Hmmmm we’ll have to see where that takes me.

Enough about IT/work stuff. My mouth seems to be healing pretty well from having my teeth pulled last Thursday. Periodontal Disease is just one more thing I have to thank cigarettes for. I have been running around to all my smoker friends, (they hate me now, because I’m so happy being 14 days smoke free and I’m usually skipping off to the gym as I pass them by), telling them the good news about our Insurance Company covering the Chantix now. That was their last excuse to not quit. Oh, I can’t afford that much money every month. Actually, the Chantix cost about the same as my cigs did every month. Anyway, I just smile and say, “whenever you are ready!” It is wonderful being able to “skip” without getting winded. So many things I have to be grateful for. Oh no, I’m going to start gushing. Oh well, I haven’t done that for a while so here goes.

My Gratitude List

  1. The disgusting smoker’s cough is gone!! I don’t even have that little rattle anymore. My voice is almost melodic when I speak, not that “deep old lady voice” I used to have. When I do cough it is such a little wimpy cough, I can’t help but laugh at it.
  2. I’m not all full of that awful phlegm anymore.
  3. I drink a ton of water and only one 20 oz diet coke a day. Two 2-liters a day of diet coke was the norm. For some reason, the caffeine left me at the same time the nicotine did. There wasn’t any withdrawal symptoms, headaches, etc. and I am truly grateful for that. Think of the money I am saving on pop alone!!
  4. Speaking of money. I can tell something is not right when I still have $60 in my checking account and it is payday. Now that is very unusual, since I don’t make much money and live paycheck to paycheck. Oh my gosh…what if I can start saving money now! Woo Hoo!
  5. My breath smells nicer and my clothes and of course my car. Actually, I have noticed all kinds of smells since I quit smoking, especially walking downtown past some of the restaurants. 😉 I did buy some air fresheners this last weekend for my house. That is something I have always done but, I can actually smell them now. Some are too strong and I have to unplug them once in a while.
  6. More energy! That’s a big one. I go outside and do things like visit with my neighbor, walk Sonny and not get winded. I can’t wait until Spring so I can smell the fragrances of flowers; the fresh air and the smell of rain.
  7. I am so grateful for the friends I have made online during my quit. All of the support I have gotten just from blogging has been incredible.
  8. This might sound weird but, I am grateful for the little bit of weight I have gained since I quit. At least I don’t look like the walking dead, super skinny, and puffing on a cigarette. I don’t mind having a little extra pouch, (I’ve never had one before), the dog, Sonny, seems to really like it when I am sitting on the couch and he tries to lay in my lap. It will be more comfortable for my grand-kids, whenever I become a grandmother. That was my inspiration to quit smoking, by the way, “To live long enough to become a grandmother!” It’s kind of sad now when I think about it. (I am tearing up here at work, NOT GOOD.) I was so worried I would die before I got to be a grandmother, or see my children graduate college or get married. I want to be there when my daughter delivers her first baby. (Gushing now…) If I die now, even from lung cancer or a smoking related illness, at least I quit smoking.
  9. I am mostly grateful that I QUIT SMOKING!
  10. Last but not least, I am thankful that my Higher Power gave me the strength and grace to overcome this addiction for 14 days of this lifelong journey, one day at a time.Wow! I feel so much better after making this list. Maybe it’s time for you to make your gratitude list, ya think?? I know it sure helped me feel better. Take care of you!I am closing with a picture of my bud, Sonny Boy!

Sonny Boy


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Quitting Smoking-FAQs

Frequently Asked Questions about Quitting Smoking

Are you or someone you know trying to quit smoking? If so, the following information may help you. These 10 questions and answers are excerpted from a consumer brochure by the U.S. Surgeon General.

All responses in green are from me and are my own experiences since quitting smoking. Links are to my posts I have written on the subject.

Question: Why should I quit?

Answer: You will live longer and feel better. Quitting will lower your chances of having a heart attack, stroke, or cancer. The people you live with, especially children, will be healthier. If you are pregnant, you will improve your chances of having a healthy baby. And you will have extra money to spend on things other than cigarettes.

Question: What is the first thing I need to do once I’ve decided to quit?

Answer: You should set a quit date-the day when you will break free of your tobacco addiction. Then, consider visiting your doctor or other health care provider before the quit date. She or he can help by providing practical advice and information on the medication that is best for you. Of course I recommend Chantix because it has worked for me when none of the other medications did. Also, I recommend joining a quit smoking forum such as
There are several other sites that offer forums. Find one you like and post daily. It is fun because you can enter your quit date there and you immediately become accountable. Also it shows you the money you have saved and the days/weeks/months you have added to your life.

Question: What medication would work best for me?

Answer: Different people do better with different methods. You have five choices of medications that are currently approved by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration:

  • A non-nicotine pill (bupropion SR).
  • Nicotine gum.
  • A nicotine inhaler.
  • A nicotine nasal spray.
  • Nicotine patch.
  • Chantix

The gum and patches are available at your local pharmacy, or you can ask your health care provider to write you a prescription for one of the other medications. The good news is that all five medications have been shown to be effective in helping smokers who are motivated to quit.

Question: How will I feel when I quit smoking? Will I gain weight?

Answer: Many smokers gain weight when they quit, but it is usually less than 10 pounds. Eat a healthy diet, stay active, and try not to let weight gain distract you from your main goal—quitting smoking. Some of the medications to help you quit may help delay weight gain.

Question: Some of my friends and family are smokers. What should I do when I’m with them?

Answer: Tell them that you are quitting, and ask them to assist you in this effort. Specifically, ask them not to smoke or leave cigarettes around you.

Question: What kinds of activities can I do when I feel the urge to smoke?

Answer: Talk with someone, go for a walk, drink water, or get busy with a task. Reduce your stress by taking a hot bath, exercising, or reading a book.

Question: How can I change my daily routine, which includes smoking a cigarette with my breakfast?

Answer: When you first try to quit, change your routine. Eat breakfast in a different place, and drink tea instead of coffee. Take a different route to work.

Question: I like to smoke when I have a drink. Do I have to give up both?

Answer: It’s best to avoid drinking alcohol for the first 3 months after quitting because drinking lowers your chances of success at quitting. It helps to drink a lot of water and other nonalcoholic drinks when you are trying to quit.

Question: I’ve tried to quit before and it didn’t work. What can I do?

Answer: Remember that most people have to try to quit at least 2 or 3 times before they are successful. Review your past attempts to quit. Think about what worked—and what didn’t—and try to use your most successful strategies again.

Question: What should I do if I need more help?

Answer: Get individual, group, or telephone counseling. The more counseling you get, the better your chances are of quitting for good. Programs are given at local hospitals and health centers. Call your local health department for information about programs in your area. Also, talk with your doctor or other health care provider.

Question: How fast will my body heal after I quit?

Answer: Click here to read my post .

Question: What if I slip up and smoke again?

Answer: Click here to read my post.

Please submit any questions or answers you have about quitting smoking in the comments box below. I will add them to this FAQ and find out the answer for you, if I can. Thanks for visiting my blog!

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