Smoke Free 55 Days!

Smoke Free 55 Days!

A huge milestone is coming for me. I have never made it to 60 days smoke free. Every time I have attempted to quit-which has been like every two years for the last six to eight years-I have smoked at 57 days, 52 days, etc. Even when I originally started this quit back in November 2007, I smoked at 44 days. So close yet so far. And believe it or not, Saturday night I was craving a cigarette really bad. I couldn’t sleep, I was depressed and crying for no reason really. I was bitchy with everyone and I really wanted a cig. After all this time and many days without a craving or even a thought of a cigarette, it crept up on me like a dark black fog sneaking up behind me and making its way into my mind. It consumed me. Fortunately I remembered that it was getting close to 60 days. The Nicotine monster wants me back.

This is “The Smoker’s Vow” from

The Smoker’s Vow

To be said just before taking your first puff after
having quit for any appreciable period of time

With this puff I enslave myself
to a lifetime of addiction.
While I can’t promise to always love you,
I do promise to obey every craving and
support my addiction to you
no matter how expensive you become.

I will let no husband or wife,
no family member or friend,
no doctor or any other health professional,
no employer or government policy,
no burns or no stench,
no cough or raspy voice,
no cancer or emphysema,
no heart attack or stroke,
no threat of loss of life or limbs,
come between us.

I will smoke you forever
from this day forth,
for better or worse,
whether richer or poorer,
in sickness and in health,
till death do us part!

“You may now light the cigarette.”

“I now pronounce you a full-fledged smoker.”

Postscript: While 1 in 2 marriages end in divorce, the addiction to smoking will last a lifetime—albeit a shorter lifetime. Once a smoker, annulment of the addiction is impossible. One puff can result in a permanent relapse. Don’t take the chance of relapsing to this marriage of inconvenience.


© Joel Spitzer 1994, 2000
Page last updated by Joel Spitzer on August 23, 2003

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License to Smoke in UK?

This is an interesting story posted in the Dentistry.CO.UK News

Dental health charity welcomes ‘£10 licence to smoke’ idea
18th February 2008

A dental health charity has welcomed a proposal by a government health advisory board to make smokers cough up for a £10 license before they can light up.

No one would be able to buy cigarettes without first buying a permit, under the idea proposed by Health England – and the British Dental Health Foundation (BDHF) considers it a ‘welcome incentive’ for smokers trying to kick the habit.

Health England chairman Professor Julian Le Grand suggested the scheme and argues that it make a big difference to the number of people giving up smoking, adding that a bonus would be that the cash raised would go to the NHS.

He maintains that the inconvenience of purchasing a licence may maker smokers think twice before they indulge their habit.

He said: ‘It’s a little bit of a problem to actually do it, so you have got to make a conscious decision every year to opt in to being a smoker.

‘Seventy per cent of smokers actually want to stop smoking. So if you just make it that little bit more difficult for them to actually re-start or even to start in the first place, I think it will make a big difference.’

Dr Nigel Carter, BDFH chief executive, commented: ‘The Foundation supports any measures designed to reduce the number of smokers in this country.

‘We campaigned for the introduction of smoke-free workplaces and we would back this, too – particularly as any revenue generated would be put back into the NHS.

‘There is strong evidence that most smokers actually want to give up and, by making the habit even more inconvenient, we believe this rule could provide many people with the extra incentive they need to take the step and stop smoking.’

What do you think? Would it help you stay smoke free?

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Tips on dealing with a Smoking slip-up

You might be thinking, what do I do if I smoke? Here are some tips I have found, in case you smoke. and what worked for me when I smoked New Years Day after being quit since November 19, 2007. Now I have 13 smoke free days instead of 50 something days. The number one tip I have for you is even if you blow your quit by smoking, (I smoked 7) whether its 1 or 100 do not give up on yourself, just start over. That’s what I did see Smoking Again, Kind of…,
for more details.

The first thing you should do is to tell yourself that you can stop, after all haven’t you been proving that all along? The worst thing you can do is think that you have screwed up completely and everything is lost. That can lead to having a full blown relapse and to keep on smoking.

  • Get rid of any cigarettes
  • Think of it as just a slip.
  • Do not feel bad and give up.
  • Use behavioral and mental coping skills. (Leave the situation, call a friend, list your reasons for quitting.)
  • Commit to quitting again right away.
  • Learn from your slip. Be better prepared next time.
  • Give your self some positive credit for catching it and stopping early.
  • It’s a choice – Living life on life’s terms.
  • Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional
  • Happiness is an inside job
  • You have no control over other people, places or things.
  • Your brain is not your friend-don’t go there alone
  • You have enough-You do enough-You are enough!
  • Learn to set boundaries – If you don’t put yourself and your health first who will?
  • Tears- They are important to cleanse your body and to share your true self with others.
  • Find support, Blog, Journal, Write Daily Goals, Learn to Laugh, Learn to connect with your feelings, Connect with others who understand.
  • Practice makes permanence There is no such thing as true perfection because we ALL make mistakes. That is what makes us human.
  • Listen ,Love and Learn about this powerful addiction to Nicotine.
  • Recovery from nicotine is Physical, Emotional, and Spiritual.
  • Trust the Process

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Quitting Smoking and Weight Gain

Smoke Free 8 days!

Today I would like to talk about weight gain since I quit smoking November 19, 2007 and relapsed, (had 7 cigs) New Years Day. My total weight gain in seven weeks has been a ton! When I quit smoking I weighed 142 lbs. I am 5’8″ so that wasn’t too bad. I still wore a size 8 or 10, mostly because of my belly. Menopause changes a body. I have been very lucky, up until I was 48 years old, I have been a size 8, never had to diet or exercise. So I have been very spoiled all my life. Now the bad news…I weigh 158 lbs. Ugggh! I can hardly look at that number. I have gained 16 lbs, a little over 2 lbs. a week. I have joined a gym but, with the holidays, have not been able to go regularly. I love walking Sonny but, the cold weather has slowed that down. At work I do nothing but sit at my desk all day. It’s not like I am chained to it, I could get up and run up and down five flights of stairs if I wanted to but, who would really WANT to do that? Okay, enough of the BUTS! Enough of the I CAN”T MAKE TIME! Enough of the EXCUSES! It’s time to get off my arse and get moving!

My eating habits have always been pretty good:

a.) Never eat after 7:00 p.m.
b.) Always leave the last bite on the plate, (or give it to Sonny).
c.) Control my portions by thinking of the size of the palm of hand and not put more than that.

The down side of my eating has been getting enough fruits and vegetables. I have changed that since I quit smoking, now I have at least two fruits a day. I have also added Lifesaver Mints, Pretzels, Werthers, and Peppermints to my diet also. The food, (if you want to call it that), that I have added, has helped me with the “habit” of reaching for something to put in my mouth. So far it has been working and highly recommend all of them.

Bottom line on weight gain. I read once that a person that quits smoking would have to gain 100 lbs. to do the same damage to their body that smoking does. Well, 16 lbs is nothing and I can lose that, but right now I am not going to “diet”, or freak out about it. I am going to the Goodwill and buying size 12 pants/jeans for $3.00 and will wear those until this passes. Then I will “re-gift” them to Goodwill for the next lady that needs a larger size, (not that a 12 is all that large by any means), while she is quitting smoking. Another bonus about weight gain, you should return to your pre-quitting weight by 6 months to 1 year after quitting.

So, I am going to hang in there and keep plugging along one day at a time, and ask my Higher Power to keep me smoke free today, and thank Him tonight for the Grace He gave me so I would not smoke. For that I am truly grateful.


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7 Days Smoke Free, again

It has become obvious to me that I need to do my writing first thing in the morning. By the afternoon I am not quite as sharp as I would like to be and seem to be in more of a hurry to write anything just to get it done.

Quit smoking or take Chantix?Today is my 7th or would have been 50th day smoke free. Unfortunately as I wrote about in Smoking Again, Kind of…,I smoked on New Years day after I had quit November 19th. I blame myself for quitting the Chantix too soon. I had been 18 days with out. Anyway, today I am doing very well thank you. I am taking only one and 1/2 Chantix because I can’t sleep at night, so when I get home from work at 5:00 or so I take the 1/2 instead of the whole one. In the morning I take 1mg tab and it is working quite well. I also have problems waking up in the morning. I was always an early bird until I quit. I guess my body isn’t waking me up for that Nicotine fix. Now I just keep hitting the snooze and really don’t care weather I get up or not. I have resorted to a friend calling me at 6:15 a.m. to wake me up. That is so unreal to me. For years I have been getting up at 5:00 or 5:30 a.m. even on the weekends. I associate this to my body healing from all the damage cigs has caused or the Chantix. When I was off the Chantix I could get up a little easier. That is something I have to check out.

Babbling is right today! Not much going on right now. I’ll probably write more later.


Smoking again??? Kind of…

Well, quitting the Chantix at 25 days smoke free may not be such a good idea. At 43 days, yesterday, I smoked. I have had a total of five and everyone taste like crap. I even bought a pack this morning, looking forward to my old menthol brand, instead of the camel’s I borrowed from a friend, and they still taste like sh*@. But…they did do what I needed them to do. I stopped crying. I cried all day off and on yesterday until I smoked at 4:00 p.m. then I stopped and I haven’t cried since. Strange don’t you think. What does someone do that gets that depressed without Nicotine? Who knows. My dr. just thinks it’s an excuse to smoke. Might be, but if I’m not crying and depressed I don’t smoke? Who knows! I am going to talk to my MD and my Psychiatrist that RX’s my anti-depressants.

Quit smoking or take Chantix?What to do now? Start over I guess, I took Chantix yesterday 1/2 mg and 1/2 mg this a.m. I guess I am trying again. It’s awful but it’s good too. I’m not crying but am feeling quilty but not beating my self up. I did not give in to the crave or whatever you want to call it, the first time I cried or was depressed. It was probably the 100th time, but it was the only time I couldn’t stop crying.

Oh well, try, try again.

It’s hard, that’s all I have to say and that I have been Apathetically Narcissistic. That has been my mood since I quit. Those are my 22 year old son’s words and believe it or not it makes sense.

Definition of Apathetic: unconcerned, lethargic, indifferent, listless, bored.

Definition of Narcissistic: self-absorbed, selfish, conceited, vain.

Wow! That is me without nicotine. With nicotine I am just Narcissistic! LOL

Oh well, it is all about me isn’t it???